I've stopped updating and I just read other peoples journals. I get motivation from others who speak what's on their mind and are honest about their feelings. I felt like the beginning of the new year was going to be a new start for me. But me leaving this small town and getting away from everything here that's holding me back will truly be my new start. It'll be my second chance to the life that I really want. I am grateful for who I have in my life now but it's time for me to go. Do what I really want to do. I'm going to lead the life i've been wanting to for the past few years. And I can't wait.